I have to say, the reality of my situation has finally settled in today.
A week ago I left my abusive task & the next week I have to travel back home to wrap up my healthcare expert’s appointments before my insurance is cancelled.
This should not be a substantial task, although I do get uneasy about the 12-hour drive between here & home, but even more so, I worry about my health once I am back inside my mom’s house. She & I have a tumultuous relationship & her quirks can be severely challenging, but one of her strangest ticks is her obsession with the central heating & cooling system. For as long as I can remember, my mom has been actually strict about her control unit settings & HVAC usage. She never wants to utilize the central heating or cooling system because the energy bills are so high-priced. I have many memories growing up of uncomfortably chilly winters & brutally warm summers, however when I go back to visit her as an adult, she has not changed her utility bill obsession or misguided underuse of the central heating & cooling system. It easily gives me anxiety to consider her low indoor air quality & the sleepless evenings I will face. There’s only one thing that is filling me with hope right now; the brutally warm summer time headed our direction, but because my mom has a big basement, I should be able to camp out below ground for my entire visit. The space is already inherently cooler than the rest of the house. I know she shall be forced to use her central AC unit at some point, which will make the basement extra cool in spite of the outdoor heat. If I didn’t have the pick to sleep in her ice chilly basement, I would easily shell out the money to use the HVAC at a hotel.
